One thing I hate about my self are my two biggest passions and dreams.

I aspire , and always have done, to fly. I dream of being a fast jet pilot in the RAF due to the excitement and speed of life.

I also am very passionate about dolphins and the oceans.
Now I read a news article today about several stranding recently that have caught my attention. A family of orcas in the Faeroes, a pilot whale in Scotland. And then earlier today a large number or sperm whales turned up off the west coast of Scotland. Seeing the stranding I became angry and wished that I could hold the person who caused them responsible.
But you see, it was the navy and the RAF that appear the culprits. Blasts from bombs, sonar and the massive battle ships and armada of 60 fast jets have had a massive impact on the oceans. Recently lots of military activity has taken place in the North Sea. 'Will they ever stop?' I thought.

And then I stopped.

In perhaps twenty years that will be me.
Will I be a part of a game that causes killer whale families to be ripped appart? Will I fly my jet so low that I drive a mother and calf up onto a beach to their death?

Do I give up my dream for the oceans?

I am someone who voices their opinion- I have spoken at many young politicians events- and I fear the day that I will be asked on my opinion of under water sonar. Because I don't know the answer. Yes it is vital to practice and to show that we should not be messed with and that we are ready if war happens. No as it kills whales and dolphins. The creatures that are the people of the sea.

I am just left feeling confused.

My life long dream and put my self in the one place where I feel truly free, or sacrifice it for an ocean that is already dying?